10:39 p.m. - Thursday, Sept. 09, 2004
Indecision 2004
I guess I am due another visit to this diary...I don't know what is wrong with me, I just haven't felt the need to spend as much time here as I usually have in the past.

I've been indulging in the fact that I am 12 (trapped in the body of a 25 year old) and have no life to speak of and writing fanfiction like mad.

I don't supppose fanfic is really all THAT immature, as long as I enjoy it, right? *shrugs* (Even if it is Harry Potter?? I know adults read those books, too...eh, laugh if you really have to...)

Jesse will be turning one next Tuesday...hard to believe that on this exact date last year I was getting anxious about being induced, not knowing what to expect.

We're having a party for her this Saturday and L will be coming in, so that's nice.

Mostly people that will be at her party will be people (kids) that know her from church.

I'm babbling and nothing here is in order to make sense...it actually feels WEIRD to be here, like I'm writing for the very first time or something.

I guess I just have a lot on my mind and things are racing so fast that I can't get them all down correctly. I'm not gonna sit here and try to focus, regroup, sorry. Just try and take this entry as is.

I went and applied for the job at the plastics plant...don't know when or if I'll be hearing from them.

It's so strange...I can apply for jobs here left and right and never get one single interview, but if I go back to Huntington, I may apply for, like, ten jobs and get call backs for atleast two of them.

I don't know if I'll quit this diary or not..it has been a thought. I have met a lot of decent folks here and I hate to pass that by, but nothing lasts forever, ya know?

I don't mean to shrug it off like it's nothing, I don't mean to sound like a bitch, but when I think that I don't come here like I used to, I wonder if there is even a point.

Hell, diaryland used to be my homepage when I logged on and it isn't anymore, that fanfic site is.

Not saying that I WILL quit...I'm just indecisive.

At any rate, I plan to download and install AIM, YIM, and maybe ICQ...once I do, I'll post my information here if anyone would like to contact me.

In the meantime, my new email address is scabbers_weasly@earthlink.net..please feel free to drop me a line, I would love to hear from you!

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