6:23 p.m. - Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2004
Not dead...yet
I have to be quick..I would love to go into details but have not got the time.

I am still alive.

I chickened out on Saturday and did not leave L for good, but I have however brought a lot of my clothes, Jesse's clothes, a few of our things and my computer to my Mom's where we have been staying since this passed Friday night and will be for atleast another week, making us gone for 2 weeks.

L is paranoid and keeps asking, "Are you sure you aren't leaving me and not telling me about it?"

That is exactly what I plan to do because I plan to ambush him, but I keep assuring him otherwise.

I have no modem in my computer and I have no internet at my Mom's, so I am coming to the local library when I have the chance.

I am scared about all of this, but I think I may be ok...

L still has no job and he will be drawing unemployement beginning this Friday...he still has not told me about the car but he has told his grandma (supposedly) that he has not had a job since the 13th and all she said to him was, "these things happen."

Since he will be drawing unemployement, supposedly they will no longer give him money.

Mom had to work in Huntington today and Jesse and I rode down with her, stayed with L while she worked.

He barely spoke to me and he put Jesse aside after he had visited with her for about 30 minutes.

He has not seen her since Friday.

I finally have my wedding band back (like it matters) turns out that L found it not long after I got mad and threw it at him. He has been keeping it all this time and waiting to give it back to me when I said or did something nice to/for him.

I never did, the only reason I have it back is because we got into a fight and it came up, I told him I would wear it if he gave it back.

It is in the console of my car waiting to be pawned or made into something worthwhile. Most likely pawned.

My 4th of July was cool...went to a petting zoo with my grandma D and Mom...Jesse got to see all kinds of exotic creatures and she also had her pic made with my mom and a baby lion cub.

Yesterday, Mom and I saw The Prisoner of Azkaban and I have recently become obsessed with Harry Potter.

I think I am going to get back in the habit of fanfic and write HP as well as XFiles again.

I'm getting into scrapbooking and my first project is going to be on the Greenbriar Ghost, so I need to go and do some research on Zona, her husband, and her mother.

Take care, all of you.

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