9:43 a.m. - Monday, Apr. 19, 2004
Down
So, I woke up at a particularly low point today and I really don't know why.

Maybe because I think I have disappointed L over something stupid.

Maybe because I keep thinking about what Mom said to me about not being interested in anything other than the computer or tv.

I don't know how she can say that to me. I'm interested in my daughter. I take care of her, don't I?

And what was the comment she made to me about "how I live my life" about?

I don't live any kind of life.

I stay here and I take care of Jesse.

I don't know.

Sitting here analyzing is just dragging me down further so I'm going to stop.

I have to stay happy so I can continute to put on this show for Mom.

Here's yet another pic of Jesse...it's about a month old.

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